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Thursday, October 09, 2003
Tonight I went to a seminar on Faerie lore…it was extremely interesting…hence my new fascination and most likely soon-to-be obsession with Celtic faeries.
I also watched Darren Aronofsky’s movie Pi today…it absolutely blew me away. It was so unpredictable and just so…amazing. There is no other way to describe it. The cinematography was absolutely phenomenal…im not sure who did it, but im willing to bed it was the same guy (Steven Poster) who did the cinematography for Requiem for a Dream and Someone to Watch Over Me. And once the main character shaves his head, he looks just like my biology teacher…
Speaking of biology, we actually discussed something interesting today…Thermodynamics. We aren’t going to go into great detail, considering it’s a biology class, not chemistry…but it’s a hell of a lot better than membranes.
My good friend Mark sent me the new Thursday cd, along with Pi, a band called Solar and Finch’s “What it is to Burn,” since forrest ruined my old finch cd and I am too poor to buy anything. It made my absolutely terrible week.
I got a pre-screening for depression today…Lindsay would probably be relieved. She’s been telling me to see a therapist for the past…mmmmmm, year I’d say. Basically the woman told me I seriously needed to call and schedule an appointment for further counseling…my dad is bi-polar and she wants to make sure that I get examined for what is a potentially “dangerous disease”…to see if I just need counseling or actual medication. So I guess I will do that pretty soon…maybe even just having someone to talk to will be relieving.
Monday, October 06, 2003
I'm really bummed today--things just haven't been going my way. i am really trying to make the best of it, but i can only keep smiling for so long.
first of all, i cant find a job down here. i dont know when my refund check is going to be in, and i think im still going to need a couple hours a week after that for extra spending money, since i will use the check to pay my bills. i have to pay for that ticket coming up, so im really stressed about that. but i cant just go home, renee and todd and midge and eddie invested so much on me coming down here. i feel like everything they did would have been a waste--especially because i told them i had a job--which i thought i did, the women just informed me when i got down here that she didnt need me. so i was shit out of luck, pretty much. and the grill cant work with a student schedule, so...i really dont want to disappoint the howards. its just SO hard, they dont understand--there are NO jobs here. i have applied so many places and been to so many interviews--i just dont know what else to do. a lot of friends have offered to lend me money, but i really dont want to borrow anymore, im in debt enough as it is. and im not being prideful for not taking peoples money, its just that its not their responsibility ive got to pay my phone bill too, or its going to be cut off.
my roommate is driving me crazy. most of the time we get along, but sometimes she does things that just make me irate. for example, we were watching an old move, and i didnt know what time it was set it...it was during some war. she acted like i was a complete idiot because i didnt know when the war was. she was like "dont you CARE about your nation's history?" frankly, no. i moved around so much as a kid that i was never in a school longer than 6-9 months. every school i went to was at a different place in english, history, math, any part of the curriculum. i learned jack shit about history, and it really doesnt interest me now. i watched primal fear last night, and she went to watch the ball game down stairs. when she came back up i asked her had she ever seen it, and she said no and made this face like "um, no. thats stupid." she all the time acts like the things i do or, in this case, the movies i watch are stupid. thats one thing that drives me nuts...she likes movies like The Transporter for crying out loud! She wont watch a movie that has cussing in it unless its one she wants to watch...if its one I want to watch, shell say "i dont want to watch this, i think it has too much language. are you going to finish watching it? because if you are ill go downstairs or leave the room or something." i know its so petty, but most of the time its her tone of voice. i guess thats what happens with roommates--you start picking out their small faults and thats what really grates on your nerves. i just get so sick of her high and mighty, holier-than-thou attitude. i dont know maybe im PMSing.
i talked to blake the other night, and it was really good to see how he was doing. it seems like hes much happier now that hes doing his own thing. he broke away from what he was expected to do, or what was routine or what was easiest to do, and things are going really well for him. im glad for him, because for awhile he seemed so unhappy and i hated to see him that way. i guess in that way he and i are in the same situation--i broke away from the norm and came down here--but if only he knew what kind of impact he had on me moving to mississippi...thats one truth, i think, that i have never been able to tell him.
im just really upset because i really really miss home, and things were so much easier there, as far as job stability and whatnot. but if i DO go home, i know im going to find myself in the same situations I based my decision for leaving on. Im really afraid of disappointing renee and todd, i dont want to have to help my parents pay the bills anymore, i dont want to feel pulled in a thousand different directions by a thousand different people. things would be ok down here if i could just get a job. it really is a nice break from everything and everyone i wanted to get away from, so its not that im ungrateful. im just really stressed because i dont know what to do, and today has just been disappointing. im just filled with an overwhelming sadness...
Thursday, October 02, 2003
| Theology is the effort to explain the unknowable in terms of the not worth knowing.
- H.L. Mencken
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I have come to the conclusion that it's not whether I do or don't believe in God, it's that I just don't care. When it comes down to it, I guess I do believe there is a God, because something made us, I refuse to believe we could just "evolve" from a single cell unless some kind of higher power ordered it so, I just don't care if we are born with sinful natures, have to be baptized to go to heaven, are "once saved always saved", or any other debate concerning religion or denomination. I don't feel as if any of these issues affect me.
I'm not saying I don't care about anything at all--I do. I am not heartless, cold or unfeeling; however, religious issues, such as the aforementioned, don't even cross my mind as relevant. And if they are--guess what? I don't care. Sure, I could argue all day with the best of 'em (and keep up), but where do religious debates get you? No where. And why is this? Because it doesn't really matter. These questions are simple enough, yet there are still people out there who would love to argue with me over the importance of their precious "religion". That's fine, go look in a mirror and argue with your reflection until your face turns blue. I Don't Care.
A lot of it has to do with the fact that I have a very strong lack of convictions. Can't help it. There are things I do that I know are quote "wrong", but I do them anyways and don't think twice about it. I don't feel as if I'm doing the right thing, but I don't feel as if I'm "sinning" either. Reminds me of a lyric..."But to be forgiven we must first believe in sin." ah well anyways, im just not one of those folks who can get worked up about all that much anymmore. I still have a sense of ethics, and have retained several of my values (which, yes, undoubtedly spawn from being raised in church), but my actual appreciation of these things is virtually nonexistent. Call me ungrateful, call me stupid, call me wrong, call me whatever you want--I guarantee I wouldn't argue or even be offended.
So I went online. I figured there had to be something on apatheism, and if there wasn't...well, I was going to have to make something up. But low and behold, I found exactly what I was looking for.
Apatheism:
There are four main roots of theology (we'll ignore the various ascetic, moral, dogmatic, etc. branches of theology and stick to the roots): theism, agnosticism, atheism, and apatheism - all of which answer to ideas of the existence of supreme beings. Simply put, theists don't deny, agnostics don't know, atheists don't believe, and apatheists don't care about the existence of gods.
Apatheists neither believe in nor deny the existence of gods. They simply aren't interested one way or the other. To Apatheists, the "god question" is profoundly unimportant. Even if there were a blatant, undisputed answer to the question, we would most likely go on living our lives the same ways we already do.
There are several "sects" of Apatheism. There are many NP Apatheists - the Non-Practicing kind, which generally makes sense if you're an Apatheist. Others are Latent Apatheists, meaning they are but don't know it yet. Another common form is Closet Apatheism - pretending to be a member of some religion, but really, deep down, not caring one way or another whether god(s) exist. Evangelical Apatheism, practiced by many members of the Church of Apatheism, attempts to nonchalantly spread the tenets of Apatheistic thought, and to provide intellectual sanctuary to apatheists everywhere.
There is a common misconception that Apatheists don't care about anything. Apatheists might be interested - fascinated even - in all sorts of other questions of life and existence. General apathy is not necessarily an Apatheistic trait, but it admittedly provides a springboard for the "leap of indifference". |
On a lighter note, Lucy and I went to the thrift store yesterday. I got a kick ass parka for $5 bucks and a rockin' thermos for $0.50!
This thing is so amazing...its one of those old metal thermoses...an example of its awesomeness:
Today, at 7:30 AM, I put hot coffee in it to drink during my first class. Alas, it was still far too hot to drink. And so I waited. During my second class--Nope! Still too hot. And so I waited. And waited. Here it is, 4:30 PM, and I just poured it into a coffee mug--just the right temperature! I think from now on this thing should be called the "Wonder Thermos" because of its amazing thermal power. Then when people look at it they will ooo and aaah at all its might.
I am reading a book called Jimmy Corrigan: The Smartest Kid on Earth. It's a "graphic" novel (i.e. a really long comic book). However, it's not entirely comedic. So far (and I'm about halfway done) it has had every element of a "regular" novel (drama, romance [or lack thereof], dreams, family ties, humor, death, etc.). I think it's pretty good, but I am anxious to finish because I am dying to start Chuck Palahniuk's Invisible Monsters. I finished Choke last week...now that's what I call a "graphic" novel! After I finish IM, I have 5 other books I checked out from the library, one being Jane Austen's Mansfield Park. It's one of my favorite movies, so I want to read the book. The others I checked out are either by JP Sartre or about philosophies of existence...the collective book I got touches on theories of Keirkegaard, Heidegger, Jaspers, Marcel, and Sartre. Not to mention I haven't finished reading Les Miserables...I keep re-reading my favorite part--the night Jean Valjean steals the silver from the Bishop and the morning after. The way Hugo describes the Bishop positively takes my breath away.
(Describing the Bishop) "His head what thrown back on the pillow, in the careless attitude of repose; his hand, adorned with the pastoral ring, and whence had fallen so many good deeds and so many holy actions, was hanging over the edge of the bed. His whole face was illumined with a vague expression of satisfaction, of hope, and of felicity. It was more than a smile, and almost a radiance. He bore upon his brow the indescribable reflection of a light which was invisible. The soul of the just contemplates in sleep a mysterious heaven.
A reflection of that heaven rested on the Bishop.
It was, at the same time, a luminous transparency, for that heaven was within him. That heaven was his conscience.
At that moment when the ray of moonlight superposed itself, so to speak, upon that inward radiance, the sleeping Bishop seemed as in a glory. It remained, however, gentle and veiled in an ineffable half-light. That moon in the sky [. . .] enveloped in a sort of serene and majestic aureole that white hair, those closed eyes, that face in which all was hope and all was confidence, that head of an old man, and that slumber of an infant."
[Later]
"The gleam of the moon renedered confusedly visible on the crucifix over the chimney-piece, which seemed to be extending its arms to both of them, with a benediction for one and a pardon for the other."
Does good literature get more beautiful and eloquent than that? That italicized words are one of my very favorite parts.
After reading these books, I still want to get some literature by Carl Jung. Believe it or not, there was nothing in the MUW library by him. That's all right, I have quite a bit of reading to do for the time being.
I can't wait until Saturday morning--Lucy and I are going to sleep in (or rather, just not wake up by an alarm clock) and when we get up, we are going to make blueberry muffins and eggs and have them with bananas and coffee while we watch Breakfast at Tiffanys. Then I must spend the day studying for my next Biology exam...and writing my informative speech for next thursday...and probably starting my next lit paper, due the 21 of this month...and perhaps ill even start my Biology paper (topic of choice: how proteins function as enzymes).
This, I think, has been the longest effin journal entry. Therefore, I should shut up. I have to go work out in 30 minutes anyway.
Monday, September 29, 2003
Quotes from Connie May Fowler's book "Before Women Had Wings"
"Mama always said the Devil steals tears--keeps them in a box with your name on it so that when you go to Hell you spend eternity crying the stored-up tearddrops of a lifetime."
"Men make the shit in this world. Let them wallow in it."
"But maybe, just maybe, forgiveness exists not to excuse the sinner but to heal those who suffered."
"Whether I was staring into my Mama's black eyes or the tissue-thin pages of my bible, forgiveness was not in abundace. But the wrath of God surely was."
"sadness has a way of giving birth to more sadness."
"sunsets are the moods of God reflected off the wings of birds."
"It's a place of new beginnings, a place where life starts over again everyday. Yes, that's exactly right. It's the beginning of creation. Forever."
"We were square pegs in a round world."
"Now I wasn't ready to say I didn't believe in God, and I still read that Gideon Bible, trying for the life of me to understand the mysteries of faith, but I didn't feel special in his eyes anymore. And when you've been jilted by the Son of God, there's no easy way to get over that sorrow."
"Religion and life were two pinballs forever colliding in my head."
"I was smart enough to know that there wouldn't ever be winners in a game based on meanheartedness."
"But when you can't imagine the future, and the past is too awful to mention, words tend to stick in the back of your throat. And when you do think of something to say, it usually comes out wrong."
there are some other phrases and such that are really good but they just don't make sense unless youre reading the book.
Whats your name? amanda noelle
How old are you? 18
How old are you mentally (as in are you mature?)? mmmmmmmmm 24
Where do you live? columbus, ms
Do you wish you lived somewhere else? just back home in k-town
~SLEEP~
Do you dream at night? yes!
Do you remember your dreams? down here i do
Describe one.
i was seven, and i was with my best friend (heather? kalie? something like that. she had brown hair) and her mom, my mom and my sister...we were walking to church, and everything was white. the ground, the sky, the church, our dresses, our gloves, the trees. even though everything was white, we could still see shapes, like the trees. there was a fountain, but it wasnt running. we asked could we play in it for a minute. they said yes, but becareful we didnt slip. the fountain kind of went beneath ground, there were about 5 steps down into the main part of the fountain. the fountain was pure white. on the way down the steps, my friend slipped and cracked her head open on the stairs. my dream became like a movie screen in my mind, and a red jagged line split the white screen, and continued to tear through the middle until it spread all the way out and covered the entire "screen." it was all red. then i woke up.
What time do you go to bed usually? eh, 9 or so, depending.
What time do you wake up normally? 530 on T&R, 730 on MWF, whenever on the weekends
What time do you wake on weekends? 9?
Do youfind waking late nice or annoying? well its nice to get sleep but it sucks to waste my day away
do you sleep with one pillow or two? one
Do you like school? nick and i just talked about this...sometimes i think, "college isnt for me..." but then i think "living a trailer isnt right for me either." then i force myself to like it.
Whats ur fave subject? chem and english
Most hated subject? history
Do you have a fave teacher? professor heck and dr. doumit
Ever had a crush ona teacher? dr. whitwam is so sexy
Are you a maths/science person or an english/drama person? science/english
~FRIENDS~
Do you have a best friend? not really-i have my good friends back home but i dont really know if i can call anyone my best friend anymore
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends? probably about even
Do you ever get annoyed at any friend? i spose
Have you ever lied to a friend? probably
Have you ever stolen a friends boyfriend/girlfriend? mmm i dont think so, at least not intentionally
~FAMILY~
Do you like your parents? very much
Ever run away from home? i tried when i was like 12; i ran out of the house in my dress and socks, walking super fast and oh-so-defiantly. my parents yelled "get back in here" and i turned around and went right back in the house. lol
Ever thought about it? see above
Do you have any siblings? older brother, younger sister
If so, do you like or get annoyed with them? occasionally...like when they TOTAL MY CAR
How old are they? bro 20 sis 16
If not, do you mind being an only child?
Do you feel your parents spoil you? nope
Do you not get along with any of your family? yeah, were like the brady bunch
Do you have big family get togethers ever? thanksgiving and christmas
~RELATIONSHIPS~
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no
How long have you been together?
Ever done something stupid to impress a member of the opposite sex? im sure
Have you ever experienced unrequited love? we wont even begin to tread on that subject
Do u find it romantic or hurtful? what the fuck? if anyone thinks unrequited love is romantic i would personally like to kick your ass
Even know what it is? ...
~Sex~
Ever had sex? nope
believe that a person shouldnt have sex before marriage? mmm im kind of a "be true to yourself" kind of person on that subject
Believe in casual sex? no
When do you plan/when did you lose your virginity? on my wedding night...and if i dont get married, well, i guess its gonna suck to die a virgin
Did you regret it?
~Religion~
Do you believe in God? its possible i suppose
Jesus? " "
Satan? " "
Heaven? if the previous 3 are true, then yes
Hell? " "
Does death scare you? no, not really. does it scare you?
~Morals~
Have you ever been drunk? mmmm yes
taken drugs? other than alcohol, no
shoplifted? yeah
tried to commit suicide? no...people who do this are dumb and downright selfish
Lied to a boyfriend or girlfriend? yeah i used to lie to kevin all the time
gotten into a fight? almost, haha, if you call getting sent to the office because of a (loud) argument a fight
are you more innocent or guilty? probably innocent
Would you date a drug addict? probably not, wed have nothing in common
have you ever had to look after someone who was a drug addict? no
Are you racist? no, haha but someone did break up with me once because of a jewish joke i told, i kid you not
Have you been a hypocrite in the past? hell yes. everyone has
Do you have an open or closed mind to other peoples beliefs and feelings? I think i am pretty open minded.
~Media~
Do you watch tons of tv? not tons no
How many times have you been to the movies in the past 6 months? probably a lot, forrest likes the movies
Do you listne to the radio often? never
Do you read the newspaper? occasionally but id rather watch the news
Do you read magazines? popular science
Are you a couch potato? more like a computer potato
Do you use the internet too much? waaaaaay too much
~Music~
Whats your fave style of music? probably either mellow indie or hardcore, depending on my mood
Do you play an instrument? i think i can play one song on the guitar, and sing it too
Do you sing? on key?
Whats your fave band? thrice. deathcabforcutie. mattpondpa. co&ca. theflaminglips. 238. lunahalo. std. foofighters. andrewbirdsbowloffire. jackjohnson. sublime. mest. and many more
Why? dont question my superb taste in music
Have you met them before? the bass player from coheed and the singer for 238
Name 3 cds that youve bought in that last year. jack johnson-brushfire fairytales, andrew birds bowl of fire-the swimming hour, 238-you should be living, yellowcard-ocean avenue
Why did you buy them? oh, i was hoping to use them as toilet paper, actually
~Sport~
Whats your fave sport? tennis
Whats your fave sport to watch? tennis and football, also ice skating
Do you have a fave team of any sort? i have favorite tennis players
Do you like people who play sports? whether or not they play sports has nothing to do with it
ever won anything for sport? UCA all-star, a county award, and a couple 1st and 2nd places
~perosnality~
Are you funny or serious? mostly funny i guess
Creative or not? i try to be but its never anything great
Logical thinker or lateral thinker? my brother always says im book smart but have no common sense...but thats coming from someone else with no book smarts OR common sense
Are you outgoing or shy? i can be both
Are you lazy or active? lazy
Have you ever been hyperactive? ?
Are you a naturally hyperactive person? no im always incredibly worn out
~Looks~
Are you happy with the way you look? mostly
What would you change? i want longer legs
Do you wear makeup regularly? i worked in cosmetics, how could i not?
Do you have a large wardrobe? i do, but im ungrateful and dont wear half of it
~Money~
Do you have a job? NO and i am POOR
Do you like it?
Are you a saver or a spender? SPENDER
Do you work hard or slack off? usually hard
Have you ever been fired? uh, no
In trouble at work? no
Made a major mistake? not really
Ever had money stolen from you? no but i lose it all the time
Are you always broke? yeah most of the time
~embarassing moments~
Your all time most embarassing moment? im not embarrased that easily anymore
Ever snorted drink out your nose? hahaha yes! that is the funniest thing ever
Ever giggled like an idiot? ha, yeah, garrett and feable weiner call me giggles
Ever embarassed yourself and pretedned nothing happened? ohh yeah
Ever tripped in front of someone you liked? yeah i tripped in front of forrest once, but he doesnt care-it was funny though
Ever said soemthing really stupid? all the time
Ever snorted while laughing? ::snorts while laughing thinking about how many times shes snorted while laughing in the past::
Ever fallen off a bed? dont think so
Ever sleepwalked? not that i know of
Ever sleeptalked? many times, just ask lindsay
~Memories~
What are your best memories?
i have several...like "gatoritas" by the pool, sidewalk chalking peoples houses, the great chair escapades, dollywood adventures, ijams, making "music videos", the silence of close frienship, --all these with lindsay; winning the fair pageant was an amazing feeling; i would also have to say the winter of 2001--dark nights with bright stars, tobaggens and gloves, warm coffee, hot chocolate and pop rocks from the gas station, cough drops, late night guitar lessons and band practice, sledding by a graveyard, midnight runs to walmart for absolutely no reason, checkers, and bright white smiles.
Whats the wierdest memory you have? probably also the winter of 2001
Do you have a good memory? not at all
Whats the coolest holiday you remember having?
i have a lot of cool holiday memories:
the christmas where i got the barbie kitchen, van, and beachhouse, and the babydoll stroller i wanted;
halloween my 8th grade year--sitting around a bonfire, making out with jeremy mckinion--my first kiss (although it was terrible);
also 3 valentine days ago, forrest and i watching the dbz "villiantines day" special and eating grilled cheese
Saturday, September 27, 2003
lucy and I watched "The Piano" (1992) and "Lolita" (1997) yesterday. both are highly erotic films. The Piano has Holly Hunter, Sam Neill and Anna Paquin when she was about 9. She won an OSCAR for best actress in this movie, making her the youngest "woman" to ever win one. she really was fantastic though. i guess shes one instance of a child star whos acting career didnt get horribly ruined. its about a woman who is mute, and the way she "talks" and expresses herself is her piano. her father marries her off, but of course she doesnt love the guy. then she shares a passionate love with a savage man, and the other guy is jealous, but both men come to realize that her only true love is her piano. anna paquin plays her daughter and really is outstanding. In Lolita, this middle age guy (jeremy irons) falls in love with a 14 year old girl (dominique swain). he marries her mom (melanie griffith) to stay close to her...he steals the girls innocence (but she willingly gives it up) and the whole story is about their lives together as "stepdad/step daughter." its fairly twisted, but still really really good.
i made an 95 (A) on my lit midterm, which is good for me. i didnt think id make over a low B.
today i think i will go for a walk around columbus. maybe take some pictures. im just in that kind of mood. i went to that coffee shop last night--it was loud, dingy, and smoky--my kind of place. then i think lucy and i are going to go out--where, i dont know, but out. somewhere.
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
i hate flowers. i have tried desperately to get this guy to leave me alone, but he wont! i hate flowers. he brought me roses on our first date...i should have dumped him right then and there. we've only been out twice!!! i dont return his calls, i make blatant excuses not to go out with him...its time that i told him straight---I DONT LIKE HIM! in fact, i dislike him worse than flowers. i gave these to some girl i dont know on the second floor. since she just redecorated, i told her they were a house-warming present.
sent directly to me by fed-ex from proflowers.com:
did i mention i hate flowers?
Tuesday, September 23, 2003
These are all of the movies I have watched in the past 2 weeks (I think, I may have forgotten a few). I’m going to give my review of them.
2 Week Notice (2002): Sandra Bullock and Hugh Grant—it’s so cute. I am not one for romantic comedies such as these, but I thoroughly enjoy this one. Its funny and charming—typical Sandra bullock and Hugh grant.
Mansfield Park (1999): Jonny Lee Miller—based on Jane Austen’s novel; I believe it to be the best love story of all time. Like I said before, I am not one for mushy love stories, but I could not tear my eyes away from the tv. Incredible acting and an incredible story line—plus, jonny lee miller = sex on legs.
Persuasion (1995): Ciaran Hinds—another movie based on a Jane Austen novel. This one didn’t leave me quite as entertained as Mansfield Park, but it is worth watching. Ciaran Hinds is always good.
Charade (1963): Audrey Hepburn, Cary Grant, Walter Matthau. This movie was so entertaining. It beats its new, revised version “The Truth About Charlie” by a mile. I laughed so hard at Audrey Hepburn’s antics.
My Fair Lady (1964): Audrey Hepburn, Rex Harrison—most all of us know the story behind Eliza Doolittle, and again Audrey Hepburn plays a quite entertaining and moving character. This movie was excellent—the first Audrey hepburn movie I had ever seen. Now Im hooked!
Fight Club (1999): Brad Pitt, Edward Norton, Paul Rudd, Jared Leto, Meatloaf, Helena Bonham Carter—based on a novel by Chuck Palahniuk (author of Choke, Singles, Lullaby, etc). one of my all-time favorite movies—mind blowing and suspenseful, grotesque at times but all around amazing. Very quotable, with an all-star cast. The genius of this movie leaves mesmerized. Whats really cool was a lot of this stuff was reflections of true events In chuck palahniuk or his friends lives.
Fools Rush In (1997): Matthew Perry, Selma Hayek—another romantic comedy, I don’t know how I ended up watching this, but it wasn’t too bad, despite Hayek’s horrendous hair. Hayek is very quirky and really funny in this—Perry plays the same character he plays in every other movie or tv show, so nothing too exciting.
X-Men (2000): Hugh Jackman, Anna Paquin, Hallie Berry, Ian Mckellen, James Marsden, Rebecca Romijn-Stamos—im not really into action movies, but I think this one lived up to all its hype. Great cast, neat special effects.
The Transporter (2002): Jason Statham—another action movie. It was undeniably cheesy. You might like it if you like this kind of movie.
Amelie (2001) – Audrey Tautou, matthieu Kassovitz—this is a French film, and a wonderful one of that. You will finish the movie in love with Amelie’s character. There is quite a bit of humor, and if you don’t mind subtitles you’ll love this film. Its enchanting.
Requiem for a Dream (2000): Jared Leto, Jennifer Connley, Ellen Burstyn, marlon Wayans—this movie will make you so glad you don’t do drugs. (if you don’t, I mean) the short, blunt choppy scene changes are so effective. Jared leto looks beautiful and ellen burstyn is awesome. The only thing I dislike is having to see Jennifer connelys 80’s bush. Directed by Darren aronofsky; one of my favorite movies.
28 Days (2000): Sandra Bullock, Viggo Mortenson—really only watched this for viggo. Its cute. Sandra bullocks movie are always cute.
Princess Bride (1987): Cary Elwes, Robin Wright Penn, Andre the Giant, Fred Savage—cheesy and funny—always fun to watch movies you loved as a child.
The Indian Runner (1991): Viggo Mortenson, Bonnie Hunt, Patricia Arquette—again, only watched this for Viggo. Its really sad. That’s all. I don’t really recommend it.
Groundhog Day (1993): Bill Murray, Andie MacDowell, Chris Elliott—not as funny as I remember; actually, quite annoying.
Dumb and Dumber (1994): Jimmy Carey, jeff daniels—duh.
Wet Hot American Summer (2001): Janeane Garofalo, molly Shannon, paul rudd, Michael showalter, marguerite moreau, david hyde pierce—all star cast, best comedy of all time. As Lindsay once pointed out though, if I were jewish, theres no way in hell someone could get me to go to camp.
Portrait of a Lady (1996): Nicole Kidman, Viggo Mortenson, John Malcovich—again, watched this for viggo (what can I say, my roommate loves him). It was long, and at one point I enjoyed it, but the rest of the time I didn’t so much. I hate the ending.
Roman Holiday (1953): Audrey Hepburn, Gregory Peck—once again, a fantasic Audrey hepburn movie. She is so hilarious, and even though they don’t get together at the end, I think it’s realistic and plus, Gregory peck is so yummy I could just eat him with a spoon.
War and Peace (1956): Audrey Hepburn, Henry Fonda—it started out slow, but it is so so good! Both funny and heartwrenching. I would recommend this as a great Sunday afternoon movie. And henry fonda (like Gregory peck) is a yummy doughnut
High Fidelity (2000): John cusack, John black, todd louiso, Catherine zeta-jones—I love this movie. I would recommend it to anyone who doesn’t mind john cusack talking to the camera. Whats that called? Oh well, I don’t know, but I think its great to watch him rehash all of his breakups. Plus, I would love his music store. Todd louiso, who plays dick, is so precious in this movie.
Sabrina (1954): Audrey Hepburn, Humphrey Bogart—what else can I say except it’s Audrey hepburn and its terrific. Its one of her first movies and she is wonderful.
Return to Me (2000): David Duchovny, Minnie Driver—a romantic comedy…what else can I say? Their on screen chemistry is terrible. The plot is stupid. But I have to admit, there was one scene that absolutely depressed me. That’s all romantic comedies are good for anyway.
There we have it. I am a movie jockey…next on my list is getting movies that lucy hasn’t seen, such as the green mile, the non-animated version of Sleeping Beauty with morgan Fairchild, east of eden, and a few others. Then im going to watch all Cameron crow films (ive got jerry Maguire, say anything, singles, fast times at ridgemont high, and the wildlife left—and Elizabethtown when it comes out), then david fisher movies (I have “the Game” and “alien 3” left, besides the ones he is coming out with next year—Lords of Dogtown and Rendevous with Rama). Then I will watch all Darren aronofsky films (I have PI, the 25th hour and bowling for columbine left). I am going to be busy for the next 2 weeks.
Sunday, September 14, 2003
Nickel Creek - "Sabra Girl"
Lonely, the life that once I led.
Strange, the paths on which we tread.
Led me to you, unlikely but true.
Sabra girl, clouding my view.
Rainy the day, the first time we met.
Deep was the talk, forever my debt.
It didn't seem wrong to sing a sad song.
Sabra girl, soon you'd be gone.
Early the morning, and sad the goodbye.
With a wave of your hand and a smile of your eye.
So lately did meet, no sooner to part.
Sabra girl, homeward must start.
Rosy, the lines that you wrote with your hand.
Reading between them, to misunderstand.
I made the mistake you said not to make.
Yes, reading your letters, conviction did grow.
I thought it a chance; I knew I must go.
It's hard to believe I could be so naive.
Sabra girl, flattered but deceived.
Now you just told me that friendship is all.
I'm forced to repair the breach in my wall.
Illusions and dreams, as usual, it seems.
Sabra girl, they've been my downfall.
Lonely, the life and dismal the view.
Closed is the road that leads to you.
Since better can't be, as friends we'll agree,
Sabra girl, time will cure me
1: male or female?
*its hard to believe i could be so naive
Sabra girl, flattered but decieved*
2: describe yourself
*I am a lighthouse, worn by the weather and the waves.
I keep my lamp lit, to warn the sailors on their way.
I'll tell a story, paint you a picture from my past.
I was so happy...but joy in this life seldom lasts.*
3: how do people feel about you?
*We would all vote [her] most likely to be loved to death*
4: how do you feel about yourself?
*Standing on a darkened stage
Stumbling through the lines
Others have excuses
I have my reasons why*
5: describe significant other-
*You dream of colours that have never been made.
You imagine songs that have never been played.
They will try to buy you and your mind.
For only the curious have something to find.*
6: where would you rather be?
*It's foreign on this side.
And I'll not leave my home again.
There's no place to hide,*
7: describe where you live
*How pleasant thy banks and green valleys below,
Where wild in the woodlands the primroses blow;*
8: how do you live?
*When shadows fall, he'll close his eyes to hear the clocks unwind.
Powerless to leash the hands of time.
Kingdoms fall, the earth revolves, the rain will come this spring,
And nothing he could say would change a thing.*
9: how do you love?
*I'm holding my heart out but clutching it too
Feeling this short of a love that we once knew
I'm calling this home when it's not even close
Playing the role with nerves left exposed*
10: words of wisdom
*Your first dawn blinded you, left you cursing the day.
Entrance is crucial and it's not without pain.
There's no path to follow once you're here.
Climb up the slide and then you'll slide down the stairs.*
Nickel Creek lyrics.
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 RichGirlsLilyMarch 18th 1985 (Age 24) Female Sevierville "I have stretched cords from steeple to steeple, garlands from window to window, chains of gold from star to star, and I dance" (Rimbaud). King David leaped and danced naked before the ark of the Lord in a barren desert. Here the very looped soil is an intricate throng of praise. Make connections; let rip; and dance where you can.
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