i love knowing that im wearing really cute matching bra and underwear when no one else knows. ha.

i also love having boobs. seriously.

yesterday was so hilarious. lizs car wouldnt start, so me, liz, lyn and sara pushed her car all the way to the gas station. it was so funny. a few people tried to stop and help us, but i told them it was ok, we were doing it for excercise lol. then we stayed up until 430 in the morning...we are the funniest people i know.

im really looking foward to the lsu game this weekend!

im very excited--i have the highest grade in my biology class. i also finished my biology and english papers. wooT! i wrote my biology paper on microscopy...holy crap, i had no idea microscopy could be so detailed and so complicated. my papers only 4 pages long, so i feel like ive shortchanged the subject or something, but oh well.

i am really looking foward to going home on tuesday. i swear, the past week i have been eating, drinking, and sleeping the anticipation of going home.

over the past few weeks, i have come to realize what an awesome experience it has been for me to move down here. ive been here only a few months, and already things seem to be falling back into place for me. its been a huge eye opener--ive been exposed to a completely different mindset and code of behavior. im also now experiencing the effects of a falling economy and that in itself has been a huge, like i said before, eye opener. not to mention, my mood has improved ten fold. for this, i think i owe thanks to the friends i have made down here...theyve introduced me to new people, new experiences, new music, new hobbies, new interests, new ideas and new beliefs. its amazing all the people that flow in and out of your life--the effects they have on you, on other people. i am so grateful for the friends i have made down here. because of them, i have overcome a lot of childish and self-depricating mindsets. ive also been able to overcome issues that have haunted me for years. one in particular.

i feel like the luckiest person in the world. ive known so many amazing people, and each and every one of them is important to me. ive experienced love, like the kind in corinthians--and i think so few people get to experience love in such a pure form--maybe ill get to experience that again, maybe not. either way, i am still so fortunate to have known those emotions. thats enough. Now, i have my family, a future, and an incredible set of friends that i treasure greatly--they remind me why i used to smile so much.

____MUSIC SURVEY____

10 of your current favorite songs:
1. "Tiny Dancer" - Elton John
2. "Do You Realize" - The Flaming Lips
3. "Crazy Love" - Van Morrison
5. THRICE album
6. "alabama song" (whiskey bar) - the doors
7. "One foot in front of the other" - Bright Eyes
8. "crazy game of poker" - OAR
9. #4 on Radioheads album "ok computer"
10. "Such Great Heights" - the Postal Service

Name 10 people that you know and associate each person with a song:
1. Lindsay T - "This is not an exit" - STD and the "lindsay" song by June Spirit, also, "drivin down highway 40" by BRAK HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
2. Liz - "Time" by Pink Floyd
3. Adam - "To Awake and Avenge the Dead" - Thrice
4. Matt W - "Salty Dog" - Flogging Molly
5. Lyn - "Tiny Dancer" - Elton John
6. Cassidy - "Your Winter" - Sister Hazel
7. Erin O - "Time of your life" - greenday
8. Erin S - "Tiny Dancer" - Elton John
9. Blake - "memory" - rufio, "in the cold" - student rick
10. Chris H - "Why" - Andrew Bird's Bowl of Fire

Song that reminds you of your last relationship- "valentine" - the get up kids
Best song for travelling through the country- "flying through the scenery" - matt pond pa or anything by pink floyd
Best summertime song- "summertime" - sublime, "its summertime" - by the Flaming Lips, the entire Mest album (wasting time), and the entire jack johnson "brushfire fairytales" album
Best autumn song- anything that celebrates beauty and "Age six racer" DC
Best winter song- "under cold blue stars" - josh rouse and any norah jones
Best spring song- "crazy love" - van morrison
Best song with a storyline- "sabra girl", "house carpenter" and "the lighthouse tale" by nickel creek
Song that makes/has made you cry- "your winter" - sister hazel, all of dashboard
Song for dancin' and skankin'- "Salty Dog" - Flogging Molly
Song you'd most love to see performed live- "this is not an exit" by STD and anything by the Flaming Lips (esp "do you realize")
Best lyrics in a song- anything by chris carraba
Song with the best guitar solo- "huh what?" by homegrown, hahaha lindsay
Song with the best bass riff- anything by thrice or 238
Best melody - the unchained one, of course :)
Best cover- "build me up buttercup" by me first and the gimme gimmes, "just what i needed" by the go to hells
Best chorus in a song-  "if all i am is distraction for you then i cant complain that you cant feel something for me / take all you can find in me" - armor for sleep "being your walls"; "we are the dead/a ghost of everything we thought but never said/we tried to bleed this sickness/but we drained our hearts instead/we are the ones who lost our faith/we dug ourselves an early grave/we are the dead/can we be saved?"
Best scary song - "Thriller" by MJ
Best 80's power ballad - "every rose has its thorn" - Poison
Best song with a whole lot of lyrics- "alcohol" by the Bare Naked Ladies; "popular" by not a surf
Best song to fall asleep to- "Mad World" - Gary Jules, #4 on radioheads "ok computer"
Kissing in the rain song- "Come Away With Me" by Norah Jones
Best use of a curse word in a song - "f* the police" by ice cube, haha j/k thats stupid. "lipstick" by guttermouth (on a tuesday afternoon/my mom came in my room and said get the fuck up out of bed/yeah get a goddamn job/so i told her hey, hey, fuck ya mom!/and i threw the phone at her head/but i missed and hit her in the snatch/and then i slammed the door in her face!/dont ever barge in my room/or ill kick your ass/and call the cops/and tell them im abused/and youll wind up in jail/while (something) morning mail/no one to post your bail/cuz daddy loves me more/hes says that youre a...) and "bad reputation" by joan jett
Song that's best to drive to- "Get it Faster" by Jimmy Eat World, all Thrice, Pink Floyd, Simon and Garfunkel, and Van Morrison
Song that reminds you of your childhood- "black velvet" allanah myles
Love song- "crazy love" and "gypsy soul" by van morrison (if a guy played crazy love for me...id totally have his babies...and i dont even want kids!)
Breakup song- "she has a girlfriend now" - Reel Big Fish haha, "stay" by lisa loeb
Song for a rainy day- "measure" - matt pond pa or anything by death cab for cutie
Best song from a movie- "dancing" by P.Y.T, "cosmic girl" and "canned heat" by jamiroquai (center stage), "your winter" by sister hazel (10 things i hate about you), "mad world" by gary jules(donnie darko), "tiny dancer" by elton john (almost famous)
best theme song from a television show- charmed theme song
Your theme song- "hello" by oasis, "video" - india arie

____BANDS/ARTISTS_____

Favorite bands/artists: (in no specific order)
1. Thrice
2. Saves the Day
3. 238
4. Luna Halo
5. The Flaming Lips
6. Death Cab for Cutie
7. Matt Pond PA
8. Thursday
9. nickelcreek
10. bright eyes
11. Van Morrison
12. Radiohead
13. Pink Floyd
14. O.A.R.
15. Coheed and Cambria
16. Simon and Garfunkel

Best front man/woman: Andrew Bird from Andrew Birds Bowl of Fire
Best performer(s): homegrown, Thrice
Best gimmick: the spice girls
Favorite band when you were 13: metallica, eve6, our lady peace
Best male voice: andrew bird, the singer from feable weiner
Best female voice: natalie merchant and the girl from nickelcreek, tori amos
Bands that you still like after years and years: Weezer, our lady peace, the get up kids, oasis, 311, thrice
Band/artist that you are kindof embarrassed that you like: I think im supposed to be embarrased that i like avril lavigne...but im not
Most annoying male voice: Scott Stapp of Creed <----couldnt agree more
Most annoying female voice: kelly osbourne
most annoying band: good charlotte, but only their new stuff, their old stuff was great
Most untalented famous musician- there are far too many to name
Band you'd most want to see live- saves the day and the flaming lips, bright eyes, death cab for cutie, simon and garfunkel
Band/artist to listen to when you're in love- john mayer, norah jones or van morrison

im bored. we got out of speech class early and i have nothing to do. hmm. so now im sitting next to my biology teacher in the computer lab, and hes wearing a very strange hat. SWEET! he can be part of the "silly hats" only club...i guess first we need to make a silly hats only club.

so lets see...today a girl gave her speech on racism...and she only talked about black and white. and she only did it from one point of view: the white person recieving favor over the black person. hmmmm.....anyone else see something wrong with this picture? i think one of the best definitions of racism ive ever heard was given during a seminar we had for UN 101...i cant remember it just now, ill have to post it later...something about seeing flaws in other people. it doesnt portain just to black and white. it can be me stereotyping baptists or jews (which i do, because its funny! lol but its all in good fun. they can make fun of me too, i dont mind).

lalala i wish i had something to do. i am listening to thrice and its so amazing.

so last night i got kind of pissed off about something, and i tried to stay mad, but i couldnt. i guess i am just not an angry person. i do believe people are inherently good,  and no matter what someone does to me, i always forgive them.  i also think i had an epiphany the other day. about an issue that has haunted me for what seems like forever. so thats a huge relief for myself. i dont really want to share it in this journal, but i would actually really like to talk to lindsay, because i think shed be interested in hearing this. plus, i miss her a ton!

ok im leaving.

Last Good Cry: a week before this past monday
Last Library Book Checked Out: mansfield park-jane austen and a bunch of sartre books
Last Movie Seen: the goonies
Last Book Read: choke - chuck palahniuk
Last Cussword Uttered: probably "what the hell"
Last Beverage: drinkin coffee right now
Last Food Consumed: twizzler
Last Phone Call: mom
Last TV Show Watched: uh...
Last Shower: This morning.
Last Shoes Worn: black chucks
Last CD Played: listening to radiohead's "ok computer" as we speak
Last Item Bought: thrice merch
Last Annoyance: The girl this morning who said that evolutionists believe we came from apes...also the lady in the health center who wont accept my immunization records
Last Soda Drank: been way too long
Last Thing Written: um...thrice lyrics in my ppg journal
Last Key Used: dorm room key
Last Word Spoken: stuff
Last Sleep: last night
Last Sexual Fantasy: hmmm...
Last Weird Encounter: last night this girl (who i didnt know-i apparently met her on halloween) was like "amanda, come here" so i went over there and she wants me to come to some party shes throwing tonight at the gravel pit to meet some guy...she was like "i told him all about you. hes a really cute guy from state." i was like.....................
Last Ice Cream Eaten: dulce de leche from the stage door
Last Time Wanting To Die: never
Last Time In Love: i dont know, it was a while back...
Last Time Hugged: today, many times
Last Time Scolded: its been a while
Last Time Resentful: ive been pissed and resentful all day
Last Chair Sat In: computer chair
Last lipstick used: probably 3 custom color in warm pink
Last bra worn: um, its white. it has leopard print on the reverse side
Last shirt worn: the shape shirt...black and white baseball tee
Last time dancing: yesterday
Last poster looked at: one in lyns room
Last show attended: i saw thrice, thursday and coheed on monday...but like a local show...i think an E5 show last time i was home


Three things that scare me:
1: fish/large fish in the water
2: drowning
3: making bad grades

Three people who make me laugh:
1: lyn
2: liz
3: linds

Three Things I love:
1: sleep
2: vegetables
3: music

Three Things I hate:
1: the economy
2: people who (when youre walking toward them) move to the left side of the side walk, as opposed to the right side
3: people who think they know me (there are very few)

Three things I don't understand:
1: how i managed to make a high B on my last speech...i totally didnt deserve it
2: how people are so close minded
3:

Three things on my desk:
1: water bottle
2: books
3: lamp

Three things I'm doing right now:
1: "working" (the financial aid office is awesome!)
2: filling out this survey
3: drinking coffee

Three things I want to do before I die:
1: skydive
2: learn to play guitar-own a taylor
3: open my own coffee shop and learn how to make my own special coffees (lyn knows what i mean!) thats why im keeping chem as my minor

Three things I can do:
1: chemistry
2: other peoples makeup
3: wiggle my little pinky toes (and only the pinky toes)...it looks hilarious. ever watch the goonies? it looks like that monster-y guys (sloths?) ears when they wiggle, its awesome

Three ways to describe my personality:
1: cheerful
2: easygoing
3: liberal

Three things I can't do:
1: believe in original sin
2: give up cookies
3: stand on my head

so well start with a picture of connie may fowler and myself:



she shared an excerpt from her book, it sounds so awesome and i cant wait until it comes out. it was incredible meeting her--she was so jubiliant and so radiant--it had to have been contagious because i know i walked out of the symposium smiling from ear to ear. listening to her read from her new book makes me want to start writing again.

today i almost fell down the stairs on the way to the bathroom at work this morning, lol. so after i scared myself half to death by nearly cracking my head open, i went to the bathroom. thats when i realized i put my underwear on inside out this morning. i got dressed in the dark because my roommate was still asleep. haha, i laughed hard about that one.

1.taking back sunday vs. brand new
taking back sunday

2. anatomy of a ghost vs. coheed and cambria
coheed and cambria, duh.

3. the used vs. thrice
hello, is this thing on? THRICE

4. thursday vs. my chemical romance
Thursday

5. the movielife vs. fairweather
Fairweather, definitely. they put on such kick ass shows

6. fall out boy vs. the starting line
The Starting Line

7. atreyu vs. shai hulud
mmm...gonna have to go with shai hulud

8. the mars volta vs. sparta
Definitely the mars volta

9. count the stars vs. the ataris
ataris. hands down.

10. spitalfield vs. the rocket summer
Spitalfield

11. saves the day vs. mae
Saves the Day

12. something corporate vs. straylight run
i cant say theyre my favorite, but they do have a few songs i enjoy....something corporate

13. chris carrabba vs. conor oberst
holy fuck is this a trick question? they are both beautiful, talented, and amazing lyricists

14. CT BATTLE: doozer vs. grover dill
no comprendé

15. hidden in plain view vs. the early november
mmmmmmmmmm the early november

16. saosin vs. alexisonfire
never even heard of them


17. alkaline trio vs. vendetta red
Alkaline Trio i guess

18. glassjaw vs. from autumn to ashes
Glassjaw...i think i hate autumn to ashes

19. the anniversary vs. the reunion show
The Anniversary

20. yellowcard vs. silverstein
Yellowcard = el-fun-o

21. backstreet boys vs. nsync
nsync, just because they had that song "drive myself crazy" which is awesome

i just cried over a fucking chemistry lab. what the hell? i just got so pissed off because dr. doumit says i didnt add the ammonia solution but i know i did...i diluted 120 ml of NH₃ with 100 ml of water, added 100 ml to the "new" solution, retrieved 1 ml and poured the remaining 119 ml into the "old" solution, just as we were instructed to do.  we still got full credit for the lab, so i dont know why im so pissed off. it just gave me a headache. i dont know why i cried. im drinking a glass of water (though i might rather it be a glass of whiskey) and it calmed me down a bit.

saturday was too much fun...hanging with liz and lyn and brian and dave has been awesome. its so drama free and we have so much fun. liz and lyn are two of the most generous and kind girls ive met in a long time, not to mention they are freaking hilarious. 

dave (L) and brian (R) are so precious!


ok im done venting. ill soon have pictures up of me and connie may fowler, and fill in all the details of the welty symposium.